Throwing it back to the old days of blogging today when things were just much more personal! This is something I wrote back in February and I thought I’d put it up just for the sake of my own memories, as well as to maybe help some other mumma’s-to-be. If you’re not interested in a little ramble about pregnancy and my thoughts, this post probably isn’t for you, but if you are… read on… :)
A flashback to 28th February 2019
So I’m sitting here on the couch at 3:46 am drinking a milo because I can’t sleep (even though I’ll be super exhausted later I know!) and I suddenly had the urge to get my laptop out and start typing.
It’s been ages since I did any early morning blogging and It feels really nice, reminds me of the old blogging days!
A lot’s been happening lately and also, not that much has really been going on.
I’m currently 10 and a bit weeks pregnant (obviously I won’t be publishing this post for a while!) and haven’t told anyone yet (except our parents and my best friend) and I feel like I’m just waiting for these next few weeks to be over so I can tell people the big secret and kind of “get on with things!” (and hopefully start feeling better too!)
I realise that seems kind of silly but it feels like a really awkward time at the moment, where you’re kind of having to hide the excitement/happiness about this crazy news, and also hide how crappy you’re feeling! We were supposed to be going down south with friends for a long weekend but I had to cancel as I just don’t feel up for it and I don’t think I’d be able to keep it a secret if we went!
It’s been a long time since I’ve blogged properly as well, as I’ve been giving the blog a bit of an upgrade and doing a lot of behind the scenes ‘back-end’ work, so I feel a bit disconnected from the blogging world and not as creative as I’d like to. That coupled with just feeling so exhausted (and to be honest, pretty gross all the time), so that I’m just barely getting through work, and a total lack of motivation to do anything else has left me feeling pretty blah.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not meaning this in a complaining way! I just feel like I need to share how I’ve really been feeling, rather than the mask of “yeah I’m good thanks”, that has been my standard response lately (when really I want to say “I’m exhausted, I feel almost constantly nauseous and I just want to go back to bed, even though when I do I can’t sleep!!”)
Enough whinging though! I really do feel so so happy and lucky to be in this position (aside from the aforementioned rather unpleasant symptoms). It’s what I’ve wanted, and Tom and I are so incredibly excited to become parents! Yes it was a bit of a surprise, but really it’s only a couple of months sooner that we’d been planning, and the timing is pretty perfect (other than the fact that I’m sadly going to be missing my friend’s wedding in France, but fortunately she’s having a second one in Perth next year so I’ll still get to be there!!)
Aside from the huge, life-changing fact that we’re having a baby (I still don’t think it’s quite sunk in how huge that is!) there comes the exciting part that I get to add a whole new element to this blog! I’m excited to talk about pregnancy fashion and share a little of this whole whirlwind of an experience.
That is something I’m excited and nervous about actually - getting the balance of sharing and yet keeping things private. I’ve absolutely loved watching some of my fave Youtubers (like Lily Pebbles, Fleur de Force, Kate Murnane) share about their pregnancy and their experience becoming mum’s through their vlogs/blogs and it makes me excited to put my experience out there for other’s to hopefully benefit from too, and yet there’s also that big fear of judgement that I’m sharing too much, or the worry that I’d regret putting that part of life out on the internet.
Obviously when it comes to kiddies and how much we share, that’s something I’m going to have to have a good long think about. I love the idea of becoming a bit of a “mummy blogger” and sharing about motherhood and parenting, and at the same time I know I don’t want to be putting my kid’s out there too much. It’s going to be an interesting balance and hopefully I’ll find it as I go along.
Anyway, I’m actually feeling a little sleepy now so I’m going to hop back into bed.
If you’re reading these ramblings it will mean we’re a bit further along now and we’ve told everyone, so I’d love to hear any thoughts, advice, blog topic requests etc that you might have.
I know that I wasn’t even remotely interested in pregnancy related things until I actually found out I was pregnant so I totally understand if some of my new blog content might not be for you (and if that’s the case, don’t worry I still plan on putting out lots of other content, although the fashion side of things will be a different!), but if there are any soon to be mum’s out there, I’d love to connect!
This felt like such an old-school, what blogs really used to be about kind of post - sharing thoughts, current life and working through things by writing. I hope you don’t mind this rather informal ramble and hopefully it can help even just one person who’s maybe going through a similar time right now!
As always, I’d love for you to come say hi over on Instagram @laurennatalia.co
Lots of Love
These super cute Mama and Papa Bear mugs are from Hugalatte Boutique on Etsy